What the F...

where should i start….
hmm…

oh right,let me tell you a story…
please,if you will with patient ears…
a line from a little boy’s life…
when is it that the pain started to grow?now don’t close just yet….
it’s only the beginning…
this terrible aching need for someone….
to be with her for all time,to hold her tightly,
to kiss her under starlit and moonstruck curse,to love her with pure intentions…
she is my solace,my sanctuary from this wretched pain…
the ever drawing end that will soon take place…i don’t want this relationship to end,not even risking it to break or bend…
but is there really something i can do to make her fall back to me…?
i can, without a doubt, pull her to me..
but is it right to do so?
to take away her freedom of choice?
her right as a human to love?
am i that selfish to want her for me?we both know it’s wrong…

who is right…?
a question that left me hanging to forever…
who is right and who is wrong?i need to stop thinking….
it’s driving me insane, really….
oh reality how harsh can you be?
we are….
are we..?
you’re the half of my heart as i am yours…?
or is this just a dream…?
if it were,
i’d never want to awake..!
you are my life dear…….
whatever makes you happy,
even if it were for you to leave me..
just do so that i could smile for you…
someone told me i shouldn’t change for others…
so i’d rather see you happy with someone elsethan to have you crying with me……
ask me if it hurts…
no…
it feels perfectly fine with me…
too fucking perfect…
so much that it hurts…
and it will pass…
yea it will…
when i feel it’s right for me…


what the fuck am i thinking right now…?
i should just die a thousand deaths for what i’m saying…
ofcourse you love me..
why am i to doubt that??
damn i just feel so wrong…..

i’m sorry i love you dear…….